Wednesday, March 31, 2004

miss yong just told us today that a flower is actually modified leaves with a shortened branch. they dont sound pretty after all. think i'll make a layout with the stick figures from exploding dog. quite cute lah.

school's been okay. quite slacked actually. played the praxis game yesterday. the whole group was so dead. i was the only one who actually wanted to play. -____-

johara was being silly yesterday. tried to get working mark from her cos i did damn badly, due to a wrongly memorised formula. five marks just flew away. however, she told hanisah that it was not possible as one mark is for the answer, the other mark is for the unit with the correct answer. -__- evil. and she told lihuange to keep the class quiet when she urgently wanted to go to the toilet. what a fool.

oh yes. im such a moron. i was reading book 3 of this comic few weeks ago. then, i went to buy book 4 and 5 from kino. when i started reading 4, i realised that i havent reached that part, so i assumed i only read till 2, not 3. stupidly, i went to buy book 3. and then it all looked so familiar to me. then, it dawned upon me that i read half of book 3, thats why im lost in book 4. how annoying. so now i have two book 3s. 5 bucks wasted. im so broke.

nevermind if you dunno what im talking about.


blossom. 7:29 PM


Monday, March 29, 2004

got a change of layout. dont think its very nice either. gonna change it really soon. i hope.

this week's rather free. no cas, no nothing. fantastic.


blossom. 5:06 PM


Saturday, March 27, 2004

i think my layout's pretty sucky. dont like it anymore.

did okay for progress report. just came to realise something - my english + combined humans grade = oddball's L1R5. how demoralising. life's rather mundane. wake up, go school, go home, sleep, tv and sleep again. and a tiny weeny bit of studying. today's ca. was bad.

i am bored. or rather, i am boring.


blossom. 5:34 PM


Wednesday, March 24, 2004

cant wait for american idol. have no mood to study hist now. who cares if oddball beats me once again.


blossom. 6:51 PM


Tuesday, March 23, 2004

i think im getting lamer and crazier by day. with ppl like lala, zam and sam png around me. crapping about beauty and the beast all day long. but, at least i dont get nerdier. sam png wore a pinafore today cos she lost her skirt. quite hilarious. she suddenly looked very tall and thin.

went for the financial thingy yesterday. got bankrupted and retrenched in the end. think the company's earning good money. coming up with a fun board game and earning $70/pupil. i think thats the price. cant really remember lah. but the game was damn fun.


blossom. 9:04 PM


Sunday, March 21, 2004

went to bodyworlds just now. quite amazing actually. but the poor ppl. especially those kanna sliced. i'd rather donate my organs than exhibit myself. school starts tmr. sigh.


blossom. 9:46 PM


Thursday, March 18, 2004

welcome foolish mortals. watched haunted mansion and that was what the show started with. currently my favourite phrase. =D there was a super long queue of guys outside ngee ann city. wondered why and then realised that they were collecting their jerseys for tmr's converse 3 on 3. shall go and watch since my mom's bringing me to town.

still have loads of homework uncompleted. in fact, there's not even a single completed piece of homework. i am d-e-a-d.


blossom. 9:56 PM


celebrated ber's bday yesterday. ate at breeks. the service is like damn slow. we were guessing they ran out of fish and were fishing with a straight hook [from feng shen bang]. or perhaps they were waiting for an auspicious hour to serve me and juzzy. had to ask them thrice before they bothered to serve us. and twice for the bill. we could have just walked off and save the money.

went to this cd shop in taka's basement. currently my favourite place. loads of jay poster and stuff. yeap. acted silly in front of paragon. sort of imitated the figures outside. quite hilarious. took neos after that. was damn funny cos we would be like up! down! noo up lah! so yes. it came out quite funny.

going to town again later. watching the haunted mansion. would rather watch the butterfly effect. but there's no suitable timeslot. yeap. shall update again later.


blossom. 10:12 AM


Tuesday, March 16, 2004

went for amaths in the morning. loko was telling me the horrifying tale that oddball thinks that we are good friends. rightt. how true can that get.

went to kenny rogers after amaths. they dont have the cheese macaroni. was looking forward to it. but too bad. wanted to go town after that. but we didnt know which is the direction 36 heading. so stayed in suntec to look for ber's present. ended up buying her a shirt from 37 degrees. its red. with simple lines.

almost half the break is gone. but my books and worksheets are in a mess. about time i started packing my files and neaten up my books. ...............


blossom. 4:40 PM


Monday, March 15, 2004

did emma's blog up. its much nicer than the one ahpa found for her. haha. went swimming. met juzzy and ber only after i changed. didnt see them cos while i was doing laps, they were suntanning in the baby pool. -i really wonder why-

went to bugis with them. ber was being abnormally quiet and bad tempered cos sam broke news of someone liking first soldier to her. its unbelievable that someone other than ber will like him. haha. yan came later. took funny neoprints. added ribbons to juzzy's and yan's head. and we all looked hilarious in one of the neos. haha. funnn.


blossom. 6:50 PM


Sunday, March 14, 2004

my jay layout last no longer than half a day. in an attempt to cover up the blog ad, it ended up looking bad. thus, ive decided to replace it with this which is absolutely fantastic. however, im too lazy to edit my guestbook. so, the jay one stays.

7 days later, i'll be here, blogging about my uncompleted homework and my rotting at home. doubt i'll accomplish anything this week.


blossom. 8:15 PM


Thursday, March 11, 2004

it was raining cats and dogs. think its the biggest storm ive ever experienced in my whole fifteen years and a lil more. everyone was screaming when the thunder killed our eardrums. stayed in school, waiting in vain for the rain to stop. in the end decided to leave before the rain got even bigger. there was this weird guy who was walking in front of me while i walked home. he took off his shoes and walked barefooted. then i thought, it would be quite fun to do that. of course, i didnt follow his example. duh.

feeling quite siann. think i shall just give up on bio and concentrate on my ss in hope to improve my combined humans. very hopefully, i wont do too badly for the big o's.


blossom. 4:32 PM


Tuesday, March 09, 2004

recently, a teenaged boy jumped to his death. life is precious, and should be cherished. then why did he do it? simply because his teacher found out about his 'affair' with a girl, and threatened to ring up his parents. this is absolutely stupid and ridiculous. sometimes i wonder, do they suiciders regret jumping off during their 'flight' down?

got called for wearing coloured sb. was damn annoyed. i dont even see the rationale in wearing white sb. they claim that when we go running outside school, ppl will complain. firstly, we hardly ever run outside school. secondly, some whites are so light that they are translucent. isnt that even worse than a dark coloured one which conceals everything. -_____-


blossom. 4:59 PM


Saturday, March 06, 2004

Leaf departure is because of Wind pursuit. Or because Tree didn't ask her to stay

Tree
The reason I'm called tree is because I'm good at painting trees. Overtime I start to use a tree on the right hand corner as a trademark for all my watercolors painting. I have dated 5 gals when I was in Pre-U. There's one gal who I love a lot but never dare go after her. She doesn't have a pretty face, doesn't have a good figure, doesn't have outstanding charm. She is just a very ordinary gal.

I like her. I really like her. Like her innocent, like her frankness. Like her cuteness, like her intelligence and her fragility. Reason for not going after her is because I felt somebody so ordinary like her is not a good match for me. I'm also afraid that after we are together all the good feelings will vanish. I'm also afraid other's gossips will hurt her. I felt that if she's my gal, she will be mine ultimately & I don't have to give up everything just for her. The last reason, made her accompany me for 3 years. She watch me chase after gals, and I have make her heart cry for 3 years.

She wants to be a good actress and I'm a very demanding director. When I kissed my 2nd girlfriend, she bumped into us. She was embarrassed but smile & say "Go on!" before running off. The next day, her eyes was swollen like a walnut. I purposely didn't want to think about what causes her to cry but laugh at her the whole day. When everybody go back home, she was alone crying in the classroom. She didn't know that I returned from soccer training to get something. I watch her cry for an hour or so.

My 4th girlfriend didn't like her. There was once when both of them quarreled. I know that based on her character she's not the type that will start off the quarrel. But I still sided with my girlfriend. I shouted at her and her eyes was filled shocked. I didn't care about her feelings and walked off with my girlfriend. The next day, she still laugh & joke with me like nothing has ever happened. I know that she's very hurt but she didn't know that my heart ache is as bad as hers.

When I broke up with my 5th girlfriend, I asked her out. After going out for a day, I told her that I have something to tell her. She told me that coincidentally, she has something to tell me too. I told her about my break up and she told me about her getting together. I know whose the guy. He has been going after her for quite a while. A very cute guy full of energy, lively and interesting. His pursuit for her has been the talk of the school.

I can't show her my heart ache but could only smile & congratulate her. When I reach home, the heart ache is so strong that I can't stand it. It's like a heavy weighted stone on my chest. I couldn't breath. Wanted to shout but can't. Tears rolled down & I broke down & cry. How many times have I seen her cry for the man that doesn't acknowledge her presence too.

During graduation, I read a sms in my hp. It was send 10 days ago when I broke down and cry. I haven't read it since then. It says "Leaf departure is because of Wind pursuit. Or because Tree didn't ask her to stay"

Leaf
During Pre-U days, I like to collect leaves. Why? Because I felt that for a leaf to leave the tree she has been relying on for so long it takes a lot of courage. During the 3 years of Pre-U I was on very close terms with a guy. Not BGR kind but as buddy kind. But when he had his 1st girlfriend, I learnt a feeling I never should have learnt - Jealousy. The sourness in the heart can't be describe by using a lemon. It's like 100 rotten sour lemon. Sourness to the extreme limit. They were only together for 2 mths. When they broke up, I hide my strong sense of happiness. But after a mth, he got together with another gal.

I like him & I know he like me. But why won't he pursue me? Since he love me why he doesn't want to make the first move? Whenever he had a new girlfriend, my heart would hurt. Time after time, my heart was hurt. I begin to suspect that this is a one sided love. If he don't like he, why does he treat me so well. It's beyond what you will normally do for a friend. Liking a person is very heart wrenching. I can know his likes, his habits. But his feelings towards me I can never figure out. You can't expect me a gal to ask him right?

Despite that, I still want to be by his side. Care for him, accompany him, love him. Hoping that one fine day, he will come & love me. It's like waiting for his phone call every night, wanting him to send me sms. I know that no matter how busy he is, he will make time for me. Because of this, I waited for him. The 3 years were the hardest to go through & I really want to give up. Sometimes, I wonder should I continue waiting. The pain and hurt, the dilemma accompany me for 3 years.

Till the end of my 3rd year, a 2nd year junior begins to go after me. Everyday he pursuit me relentlessly. From outright rejection to a point in time when I felt that I'm willing to let him have a small footing in my heart. He's like a warm & gentle wind, trying to blow a leaf away from the tree. In the end, I realized that I didn't want to give this wind a small footing in my heart. I know this wind will bring this badly battered leave far away & better land. Finally I left tree, but the tree only smile & didn't ask me to stay. Leaf departure is because of Wind pursuit. Or because Tree didn't ask her to stay

Wind
Because I like a gal called leaf. Because she's so dependent on tree so I have to be a gust wind. A wind that will blow her away. When I first met her, it was 1 mth after I transfer to the new school. I saw a petite person looking at my seniors & me playing soccer. During ECA time, she will always be sitting there. Be it alone or with her friends looking at him. When he talks with gals there's jealousy in her eyes. When he looked at her, there's a smile in her eyes. Looking at her became my habit. Just like she likes to look at him.

One day, she didn't appear. I felt something amissed. I can't explain the feeling except it's a kind of uneasiness. The senior was also not there as well. I went to their classroom, hid outside and saw my senior scolding her. Tears were in her eyes while he left. The next day, I saw her at her usual place, looking at him. I walked over and smiled to her. Took out a note & gave to her. She was surprised. She looked at me, smiled & accept the note. The next day, she appeared & pass me a note and left.
Leaf's heart is too heavy and Wind couldn't blow her away

It's not that leaf heart is too heavy. It because leaf never want to leave tree
I replied her note with this statement and slowly she started to talk to me & accept my presents & phone calls. I know that the person she loves is not me. But I have this perseverance that one day I will make her like me. Within 4 mths, I have declared my love for her no less than 20 times. Every time, she will divert away from the topic. But I never give up. If I decide I want her to be mine, I will definitely use all means to win her over. I can't remember how many times I have declared my love to her. Although I know she will try to divert but I still bear a small ray of hope. Hoping that she will agree to me my girlfriend. I didn't hear any reply from her over the phone. I asked "what are you doing? How come you didn't want to reply?" She said, "I'm nodding my head". "Ah?" I couldn't believe my ears. "I'm nodding my head" She replied loudly. I hang up the phone, quickly changed and took a taxi and rush to her place & press her door bell. During the moment when she opens the door. I hugged her tightly. Leaf departure is because of Wind pursuit. Or because Tree didn't ask her to stay.


blossom. 11:51 PM


went for sya's bbq at east coast. helped with the fire. oh yes. the bag looked even better after loko added the facial features. basically, we just sat around playing bridge and talking while some acs ppl shookwriggled their asses off with old hag cheering as if they were the best dancers around. it was indeed an awful sight.

there was this old man in the tent near where we were sitting, he was bald and all, and he looked vaguely like gollum. my precioussss.


blossom. 10:39 PM


i think i'll do better under stress. dunno lah. another stress week coming up. bio and ss. shucks.

made a funky tote bag for sya. not from scratch of course. just painted on it and stick sequins on. yes. she'll better like it.


blossom. 11:33 AM


Thursday, March 04, 2004

maybe its just me, but jolin's voice is annoying. indeed she can sing, but its irritating. without jay, she'll prolly be a flop. think ive just wasted ms's cd by burning her latest album. the only songs worth spinning are the jay-written ones. especially hai dao cos it has jay's vocals.

went for the heats at vjc. attended some lame talk before that. mrs lopez tricked us into going by telling us its about the ageing population. however, it was just a silly promotion for the kids walk. arghh. waste our time.


blossom. 9:22 PM


Wednesday, March 03, 2004

feeling much more energetic than just now. i like today. so slack. yet i still felt tired just now. im ageing. ok nvm.

lame school wants us to write ten good things about ourselves. in case they havent realised, not everyone is so bhb to announce their strengths. but being nice, i shall write a few for oodball.
1. i am a straight-A pupil.
2. i love to study.
3. i never not complete assignments.
4. i am attentive in class.
5. i never slack.

she should thank me for dealing with her heavy work load. aint i great. im lame.


blossom. 9:24 PM


feeling damn tired. went for the polymer workshop. mrs liew happily did not mention that it would solidify very quicky. and so, i happily took my own sweet time, only to realise that i cant but anything in. so, poked the jelly-like substance with the satay stick and managed to get some ugly designs. i am so stupid. hope the paper weight just vanish into the thin air so i'll never have to see it again.


blossom. 6:04 PM


Tuesday, March 02, 2004

a pretty butterfly for emma. titled margarine in flight. sam thought of it during english cos lame loe made us create clues for words and make ppl guess.

it would be nice a be a doctor. you earn like so much. just a few words from the specialist [which is of not much use] and i had to pay over 70 bucks. its like quick money. but of course, you need to study a lot before youre qualified to make these quick bucks. did i mention that my doc had nose hair sticking out of his nose. it was quite hard to look at him and not laugh.


blossom. 6:23 PM


Monday, March 01, 2004

just spent 20min on tingxie and im already falling asleep. so much for my 100 mark goal. its somewhere out in the universe. right here, i must praise emma for her great job at the high jump heats. much better than what happened to sam last year. lol. shall dedicate a butterfly layout to her soon. queen rawkedd. she, unexpectedly, got first for high jump. isnt it wonderful! something for 4/2. not that our dearest classmates really bother actually. ah gwen was rather funny. she jumps vertically and still can jump so high. we deduced that she used 'qinggong'. haha.

did not managed to beat oddball in chem after all. what a pity. should have got hanny in my alliance. cos she was one person who managed to beat oddball. wahaha. i feel lame.


blossom. 8:48 PM