Sunday, January 30, 2005
i just got home from my friend's house, who just lives down the street. haha. i was pouring over her yearbooks and having a good laugh. some ppl looked so funny. and many obviously have improved a lot. it doesnt take much of a genius to realise what school she was from.
then i sat down to watch her class video. it was so cool. so funny. all the good memories and fun in class. i wished we made a 4/2 video too. it would be doubly cool, doubly funny, and a lot more memorable.
i often stone in econs tutorials. then i'll think of 4/2. if i were still in 4/2, i wouldnt be stoning cos i'll be telling cherlyn to stop adjusting her fringe. or i'll be telling pngie to sing another song. laughing at lala when she starts digging into her file. teasing emma whenever its bio. turning back to simeng and rolling my eyes whenever oddy says something ridiculously annoying. exchange glances with leandra whenever a teacher talks about curves and lines. remember the one when miss lui said xinyi is a line and leandra is a curve. i miss 4/2 terribly. even though we dont have a video, the times we spent together is a movie permanently installed in my mind.
then i sat down to watch her class video. it was so cool. so funny. all the good memories and fun in class. i wished we made a 4/2 video too. it would be doubly cool, doubly funny, and a lot more memorable.
i often stone in econs tutorials. then i'll think of 4/2. if i were still in 4/2, i wouldnt be stoning cos i'll be telling cherlyn to stop adjusting her fringe. or i'll be telling pngie to sing another song. laughing at lala when she starts digging into her file. teasing emma whenever its bio. turning back to simeng and rolling my eyes whenever oddy says something ridiculously annoying. exchange glances with leandra whenever a teacher talks about curves and lines. remember the one when miss lui said xinyi is a line and leandra is a curve. i miss 4/2 terribly. even though we dont have a video, the times we spent together is a movie permanently installed in my mind.
blossom. 9:30 PM
Tuesday, January 25, 2005
american idol has started its run once again, but i havent caught a single episode. its okay, cos there's a newborn idol who is much more mesmerizing (ugh.) and interesting. of course, it cant be the temasek idol. put your hands together and welcome the ODDY IDOL! -the crowd goes wild- unlike the usual idol style, oddy selects her idol and thats it. no rounds selection, no voting. and the newly crowned oddy idol is none other than simeng! oddy idolises simeng so much that she cut her hair like simeng. she've got a similar bag to show her keen support for simeng. she even has the same colour pencils! what a dear supporter oddy is.
im sorry simeng that im blogging about this. wanjie wants some juicy reading material and this is the best i can come up with. no offense! (why should you be offended in the first place, its such an honour! ;x)
im sorry simeng that im blogging about this. wanjie wants some juicy reading material and this is the best i can come up with. no offense! (why should you be offended in the first place, its such an honour! ;x)
blossom. 10:00 PM
Friday, January 21, 2005
once again ive put up the mayday song, jue jiang. cos im feeling what i felt when i put vjc first choice. didnt worked out, but never mind. just felt very shuang that i tried. i went for basketball yesterday, and the coach very reluctantly put me on basketball probation. which means, if i dont improve within a month, she's gonna kick me out.
but still im willing to take the chance, even though i can just remain in touch rugby with no risks of being cca-less. the difference between touch and basketball to me is that, ive never looked forward to touch rugby training and i was excited to go for basketball. and, i wasnt peering over to the field to watch touch like how i was squinting my eyes to catch some basketball action (its not just number four okay.) when i was on the field. i would rather be the lousiest basketballer than to be the touch rugger with good hands, or so they said.
never mind if you dont understand what im talking about. just keep in mind that im pretty upbeat. meeting old cock later. havent seen her since o levels ended. im so excited. ;DD
but still im willing to take the chance, even though i can just remain in touch rugby with no risks of being cca-less. the difference between touch and basketball to me is that, ive never looked forward to touch rugby training and i was excited to go for basketball. and, i wasnt peering over to the field to watch touch like how i was squinting my eyes to catch some basketball action (its not just number four okay.) when i was on the field. i would rather be the lousiest basketballer than to be the touch rugger with good hands, or so they said.
never mind if you dont understand what im talking about. just keep in mind that im pretty upbeat. meeting old cock later. havent seen her since o levels ended. im so excited. ;DD
blossom. 10:55 AM
Wednesday, January 19, 2005
i like wednesdays. i seem to be meeting nice ppl on wednesdays. ;DD
so we got our proper schedule today. and mine sucks. its out to kill. every single box seems to be filled. why do some ppl get timetables that is so slack (getting off at twelve twice a week) and i dont happen to be that some ppl? sigh.
so we got our proper schedule today. and mine sucks. its out to kill. every single box seems to be filled. why do some ppl get timetables that is so slack (getting off at twelve twice a week) and i dont happen to be that some ppl? sigh.
blossom. 7:51 PM
Saturday, January 15, 2005
i sprained my ankle again. ;(( what a suay year. less than two weeks into 2005 and ive sprained my ankle twice. i shall try to keep off any strenuous exercise for a week and pray that it'll be fine for the rest of my life. my dad is forbidding me to play basketball for a month. that is simply absurd.
the 4e2 gathering was great. tk's still the best.
the 4e2 gathering was great. tk's still the best.
blossom. 11:05 PM
Thursday, January 13, 2005
went to crash mjc today. the guys there likes to stare at us. probably cos they have never seen ppl shouting from upstairs to downstairs. sheesh. honestly. these ppl. -shakes head- saw most of the tkgians at mjc. and their fellow guys. even loko had a guy. the very first time i've seen loko get excited over the opposite sex. and her taste is definitely better than sam, no doubts about that. didnt get to see lihuan though. (lihuan ge you silly girl. where the hell were you?!) it was quite a last minute decision to crash mjc. the look of astonishment on monica's face when she saw the great me was classic. lol.
then we crashed vjc. met my primary school friends and caught up with them ;D if only life was just about having a few lectures in the morning and heading to other jcs. but too bad, my slack timetable will end tmr. sigh. and we've got swimming tmr. i cant believe that im exposing my fat legs and awful uneven tan to people i barely know. but heck, i'll get through.
then we crashed vjc. met my primary school friends and caught up with them ;D if only life was just about having a few lectures in the morning and heading to other jcs. but too bad, my slack timetable will end tmr. sigh. and we've got swimming tmr. i cant believe that im exposing my fat legs and awful uneven tan to people i barely know. but heck, i'll get through.
blossom. 10:00 PM
Monday, January 10, 2005
loko is an incredibly sweet person. she got me a jay paper bag from hongkong which is goddamn gorgeous.
i went to crash vjc today. saw many familiar faces. lala, wara, hanisah, yada yada. basically the 4e2ians. it was great to see them again lah. sat in the chem lecture with sam. the lecturers are seriously lame. they even had a slide on why would you want to take science. one of the reasons was for patriotism, to make your country more advanced. oh my. basically yakked thru the whole lecture. or rather, hear sam yak about her crooked and xiandao. which are both not hottie material at all. i was appalled at her opinion of cute. do visit vjc and you'll know how awful her taste is.
i went to crash vjc today. saw many familiar faces. lala, wara, hanisah, yada yada. basically the 4e2ians. it was great to see them again lah. sat in the chem lecture with sam. the lecturers are seriously lame. they even had a slide on why would you want to take science. one of the reasons was for patriotism, to make your country more advanced. oh my. basically yakked thru the whole lecture. or rather, hear sam yak about her crooked and xiandao. which are both not hottie material at all. i was appalled at her opinion of cute. do visit vjc and you'll know how awful her taste is.
blossom. 4:25 PM
Saturday, January 08, 2005
pictures at the zoo. click.
what a hectic week. dry games on monday. amazing race on tuesday. wet games on wednesday. mass dance at suntec on thursday. and lastly, the renaissance night on friday. renaissance night was damn cool. great singapore idol skit. and we were dancing after the night ended at ten all the way till eleven. damn fun.
im beginning to enjoy tjc more. i mean, no point sulking and making myself miserable since im going to be there for at the very least three months. i managed to find some non-cheena ppl so things are getting better. my og, n2, is getting more enthu. so yeah. till i discover more unpleasant things.
oh yeah, something's wrong with my internet explorer so i cant read my comments. nonetheless, do keep them coming in. i'll just read them in school. ;p
what a hectic week. dry games on monday. amazing race on tuesday. wet games on wednesday. mass dance at suntec on thursday. and lastly, the renaissance night on friday. renaissance night was damn cool. great singapore idol skit. and we were dancing after the night ended at ten all the way till eleven. damn fun.
im beginning to enjoy tjc more. i mean, no point sulking and making myself miserable since im going to be there for at the very least three months. i managed to find some non-cheena ppl so things are getting better. my og, n2, is getting more enthu. so yeah. till i discover more unpleasant things.
oh yeah, something's wrong with my internet explorer so i cant read my comments. nonetheless, do keep them coming in. i'll just read them in school. ;p
blossom. 3:35 PM
Monday, January 03, 2005
first day of school and overall, it sucked. except for the cool mass dance and the smooth sc who demostrated it. and the games section. other than that, tj sucked. no way can it be compared to tk. the school song has no tune. the cheer isnt as good as the tk philosophy. the ppl are so much less enthu. to think my og is called n2, meaning enthu. oh well.
then, the water bottle ahsoh bought for me just had to leak. and my pe tshirt got drenched. which meant i had to wear my blouse and run around during the games. the worst thing was that (horrors of horrors) i had tan say hoon in my og. i thought after ditching oddy my life would be great. obviously not. heaven had to thwart my plans. seems like heaven wants a new victim for unspoken-words. so watch this space ppl. i may just be able to throw her into the sea when we hit east coast. but goddamn it, ive got my derdeng. we'll see what i can do. -evil grin-
i want to go back to tk, seeing familiar faces around, and even sit in johara's class. i dont want tj. i dont want to grow up. i just wanna play. im being irresponsible and irrational and childish but i dont care.
then, the water bottle ahsoh bought for me just had to leak. and my pe tshirt got drenched. which meant i had to wear my blouse and run around during the games. the worst thing was that (horrors of horrors) i had tan say hoon in my og. i thought after ditching oddy my life would be great. obviously not. heaven had to thwart my plans. seems like heaven wants a new victim for unspoken-words. so watch this space ppl. i may just be able to throw her into the sea when we hit east coast. but goddamn it, ive got my derdeng. we'll see what i can do. -evil grin-
i want to go back to tk, seeing familiar faces around, and even sit in johara's class. i dont want tj. i dont want to grow up. i just wanna play. im being irresponsible and irrational and childish but i dont care.
blossom. 10:24 PM
Sunday, January 02, 2005
this holiday has been a splendid one. not one day did i spend unoccupied. not a single day that i regret. but it just had to end so fast. there's still so many things i want to do. play more basketball with the kcc gang and monica and co. play more bridge with anyone who plays bridge. go out more with whoever wants to go out. watch more movies in cinemas. i've only caught three this holiday, isnt that pathetic. have more stayovers, chalets, bbqs, whatever. basically, just to spend more time with everyone.
but all good things have to come to an end, and this wonderful holiday has found its end. tomorrow i'll return to school. no longer the familiar green tkgs, but (although still green) tjc. all will turn out find. or will it?
but all good things have to come to an end, and this wonderful holiday has found its end. tomorrow i'll return to school. no longer the familiar green tkgs, but (although still green) tjc. all will turn out find. or will it?
blossom. 10:06 PM
i've posted this story sometime before. decided to dig it out and share it with you ppl once more.
Leaf departure is because of Wind pursuit. Or because Tree didn't ask her to stay
Tree
The reason I'm called tree is because I'm good at painting trees. Overtime I start to use a tree on the right hand corner as a trademark for all my watercolors painting. I have dated 5 gals when I was in Pre-U. There's one gal who I love a lot but never dare go after her. She doesn't have a pretty face, doesn't have a good figure, doesn't have outstanding charm. She is just a very ordinary gal.
I like her. I really like her. Like her innocent, like her frankness. Like her cuteness, like her intelligence and her fragility. Reason for not going after her is because I felt somebody so ordinary like her is not a good match for me. I'm also afraid that after we are together all the good feelings will vanish. I'm also afraid other's gossips will hurt her. I felt that if she's my gal, she will be mine ultimately & I don't have to give up everything just for her. The last reason, made her accompany me for 3 years. She watch me chase after gals, and I have make her heart cry for 3 years.
She wants to be a good actress and I'm a very demanding director. When I kissed my 2nd girlfriend, she bumped into us. She was embarrassed but smile & say "Go on!" before running off. The next day, her eyes was swollen like a walnut. I purposely didn't want to think about what causes her to cry but laugh at her the whole day. When everybody go back home, she was alone crying in the classroom. She didn't know that I returned from soccer training to get something. I watch her cry for an hour or so.
My 4th girlfriend didn't like her. There was once when both of them quarreled. I know that based on her character she's not the type that will start off the quarrel. But I still sided with my girlfriend. I shouted at her and her eyes was filled shocked. I didn't care about her feelings and walked off with my girlfriend. The next day, she still laugh & joke with me like nothing has ever happened. I know that she's very hurt but she didn't know that my heart ache is as bad as hers.
When I broke up with my 5th girlfriend, I asked her out. After going out for a day, I told her that I have something to tell her. She told me that coincidentally, she has something to tell me too. I told her about my break up and she told me about her getting together. I know whose the guy. He has been going after her for quite a while. A very cute guy full of energy, lively and interesting. His pursuit for her has been the talk of the school.
I can't show her my heart ache but could only smile & congratulate her. When I reach home, the heart ache is so strong that I can't stand it. It's like a heavy weighted stone on my chest. I couldn't breath. Wanted to shout but can't. Tears rolled down & I broke down & cry. How many times have I seen her cry for the man that doesn't acknowledge her presence too.
During graduation, I read a sms in my hp. It was send 10 days ago when I broke down and cry. I haven't read it since then. It says "Leaf departure is because of Wind pursuit. Or because Tree didn't ask her to stay"
Leaf
During Pre-U days, I like to collect leaves. Why? Because I felt that for a leaf to leave the tree she has been relying on for so long it takes a lot of courage. During the 3 years of Pre-U I was on very close terms with a guy. Not BGR kind but as buddy kind. But when he had his 1st girlfriend, I learnt a feeling I never should have learnt - Jealousy. The sourness in the heart can't be describe by using a lemon. It's like 100 rotten sour lemon. Sourness to the extreme limit. They were only together for 2 mths. When they broke up, I hide my strong sense of happiness. But after a mth, he got together with another gal.
I like him & I know he like me. But why won't he pursue me? Since he love me why he doesn't want to make the first move? Whenever he had a new girlfriend, my heart would hurt. Time after time, my heart was hurt. I begin to suspect that this is a one sided love. If he don't like he, why does he treat me so well. It's beyond what you will normally do for a friend. Liking a person is very heart wrenching. I can know his likes, his habits. But his feelings towards me I can never figure out. You can't expect me a gal to ask him right?
Despite that, I still want to be by his side. Care for him, accompany him, love him. Hoping that one fine day, he will come & love me. It's like waiting for his phone call every night, wanting him to send me sms. I know that no matter how busy he is, he will make time for me. Because of this, I waited for him. The 3 years were the hardest to go through & I really want to give up. Sometimes, I wonder should I continue waiting. The pain and hurt, the dilemma accompany me for 3 years.
Till the end of my 3rd year, a 2nd year junior begins to go after me. Everyday he pursuit me relentlessly. From outright rejection to a point in time when I felt that I'm willing to let him have a small footing in my heart. He's like a warm & gentle wind, trying to blow a leaf away from the tree. In the end, I realized that I didn't want to give this wind a small footing in my heart. I know this wind will bring this badly battered leave far away & better land. Finally I left tree, but the tree only smile & didn't ask me to stay. Leaf departure is because of Wind pursuit. Or because Tree didn't ask her to stay
Wind
Because I like a gal called leaf. Because she's so dependent on tree so I have to be a gust wind. A wind that will blow her away. When I first met her, it was 1 mth after I transfer to the new school. I saw a petite person looking at my seniors & me playing soccer. During ECA time, she will always be sitting there. Be it alone or with her friends looking at him. When he talks with gals there's jealousy in her eyes. When he looked at her, there's a smile in her eyes. Looking at her became my habit. Just like she likes to look at him.
One day, she didn't appear. I felt something amissed. I can't explain the feeling except it's a kind of uneasiness. The senior was also not there as well. I went to their classroom, hid outside and saw my senior scolding her. Tears were in her eyes while he left. The next day, I saw her at her usual place, looking at him. I walked over and smiled to her. Took out a note & gave to her. She was surprised. She looked at me, smiled & accept the note. The next day, she appeared & pass me a note and left.
Leaf's heart is too heavy and Wind couldn't blow her away
It's not that leaf heart is too heavy. It because leaf never want to leave tree
I replied her note with this statement and slowly she started to talk to me & accept my presents & phone calls. I know that the person she loves is not me. But I have this perseverance that one day I will make her like me. Within 4 mths, I have declared my love for her no less than 20 times. Every time, she will divert away from the topic. But I never give up. If I decide I want her to be mine, I will definitely use all means to win her over. I can't remember how many times I have declared my love to her. Although I know she will try to divert but I still bear a small ray of hope. Hoping that she will agree to me my girlfriend. I didn't hear any reply from her over the phone. I asked "what are you doing? How come you didn't want to reply?" She said, "I'm nodding my head". "Ah?" I couldn't believe my ears. "I'm nodding my head" She replied loudly. I hang up the phone, quickly changed and took a taxi and rush to her place & press her door bell. During the moment when she opens the door. I hugged her tightly. Leaf departure is because of Wind pursuit. Or because Tree didn't ask her to stay.
Leaf departure is because of Wind pursuit. Or because Tree didn't ask her to stay
Tree
The reason I'm called tree is because I'm good at painting trees. Overtime I start to use a tree on the right hand corner as a trademark for all my watercolors painting. I have dated 5 gals when I was in Pre-U. There's one gal who I love a lot but never dare go after her. She doesn't have a pretty face, doesn't have a good figure, doesn't have outstanding charm. She is just a very ordinary gal.
I like her. I really like her. Like her innocent, like her frankness. Like her cuteness, like her intelligence and her fragility. Reason for not going after her is because I felt somebody so ordinary like her is not a good match for me. I'm also afraid that after we are together all the good feelings will vanish. I'm also afraid other's gossips will hurt her. I felt that if she's my gal, she will be mine ultimately & I don't have to give up everything just for her. The last reason, made her accompany me for 3 years. She watch me chase after gals, and I have make her heart cry for 3 years.
She wants to be a good actress and I'm a very demanding director. When I kissed my 2nd girlfriend, she bumped into us. She was embarrassed but smile & say "Go on!" before running off. The next day, her eyes was swollen like a walnut. I purposely didn't want to think about what causes her to cry but laugh at her the whole day. When everybody go back home, she was alone crying in the classroom. She didn't know that I returned from soccer training to get something. I watch her cry for an hour or so.
My 4th girlfriend didn't like her. There was once when both of them quarreled. I know that based on her character she's not the type that will start off the quarrel. But I still sided with my girlfriend. I shouted at her and her eyes was filled shocked. I didn't care about her feelings and walked off with my girlfriend. The next day, she still laugh & joke with me like nothing has ever happened. I know that she's very hurt but she didn't know that my heart ache is as bad as hers.
When I broke up with my 5th girlfriend, I asked her out. After going out for a day, I told her that I have something to tell her. She told me that coincidentally, she has something to tell me too. I told her about my break up and she told me about her getting together. I know whose the guy. He has been going after her for quite a while. A very cute guy full of energy, lively and interesting. His pursuit for her has been the talk of the school.
I can't show her my heart ache but could only smile & congratulate her. When I reach home, the heart ache is so strong that I can't stand it. It's like a heavy weighted stone on my chest. I couldn't breath. Wanted to shout but can't. Tears rolled down & I broke down & cry. How many times have I seen her cry for the man that doesn't acknowledge her presence too.
During graduation, I read a sms in my hp. It was send 10 days ago when I broke down and cry. I haven't read it since then. It says "Leaf departure is because of Wind pursuit. Or because Tree didn't ask her to stay"
Leaf
During Pre-U days, I like to collect leaves. Why? Because I felt that for a leaf to leave the tree she has been relying on for so long it takes a lot of courage. During the 3 years of Pre-U I was on very close terms with a guy. Not BGR kind but as buddy kind. But when he had his 1st girlfriend, I learnt a feeling I never should have learnt - Jealousy. The sourness in the heart can't be describe by using a lemon. It's like 100 rotten sour lemon. Sourness to the extreme limit. They were only together for 2 mths. When they broke up, I hide my strong sense of happiness. But after a mth, he got together with another gal.
I like him & I know he like me. But why won't he pursue me? Since he love me why he doesn't want to make the first move? Whenever he had a new girlfriend, my heart would hurt. Time after time, my heart was hurt. I begin to suspect that this is a one sided love. If he don't like he, why does he treat me so well. It's beyond what you will normally do for a friend. Liking a person is very heart wrenching. I can know his likes, his habits. But his feelings towards me I can never figure out. You can't expect me a gal to ask him right?
Despite that, I still want to be by his side. Care for him, accompany him, love him. Hoping that one fine day, he will come & love me. It's like waiting for his phone call every night, wanting him to send me sms. I know that no matter how busy he is, he will make time for me. Because of this, I waited for him. The 3 years were the hardest to go through & I really want to give up. Sometimes, I wonder should I continue waiting. The pain and hurt, the dilemma accompany me for 3 years.
Till the end of my 3rd year, a 2nd year junior begins to go after me. Everyday he pursuit me relentlessly. From outright rejection to a point in time when I felt that I'm willing to let him have a small footing in my heart. He's like a warm & gentle wind, trying to blow a leaf away from the tree. In the end, I realized that I didn't want to give this wind a small footing in my heart. I know this wind will bring this badly battered leave far away & better land. Finally I left tree, but the tree only smile & didn't ask me to stay. Leaf departure is because of Wind pursuit. Or because Tree didn't ask her to stay
Wind
Because I like a gal called leaf. Because she's so dependent on tree so I have to be a gust wind. A wind that will blow her away. When I first met her, it was 1 mth after I transfer to the new school. I saw a petite person looking at my seniors & me playing soccer. During ECA time, she will always be sitting there. Be it alone or with her friends looking at him. When he talks with gals there's jealousy in her eyes. When he looked at her, there's a smile in her eyes. Looking at her became my habit. Just like she likes to look at him.
One day, she didn't appear. I felt something amissed. I can't explain the feeling except it's a kind of uneasiness. The senior was also not there as well. I went to their classroom, hid outside and saw my senior scolding her. Tears were in her eyes while he left. The next day, I saw her at her usual place, looking at him. I walked over and smiled to her. Took out a note & gave to her. She was surprised. She looked at me, smiled & accept the note. The next day, she appeared & pass me a note and left.
Leaf's heart is too heavy and Wind couldn't blow her away
It's not that leaf heart is too heavy. It because leaf never want to leave tree
I replied her note with this statement and slowly she started to talk to me & accept my presents & phone calls. I know that the person she loves is not me. But I have this perseverance that one day I will make her like me. Within 4 mths, I have declared my love for her no less than 20 times. Every time, she will divert away from the topic. But I never give up. If I decide I want her to be mine, I will definitely use all means to win her over. I can't remember how many times I have declared my love to her. Although I know she will try to divert but I still bear a small ray of hope. Hoping that she will agree to me my girlfriend. I didn't hear any reply from her over the phone. I asked "what are you doing? How come you didn't want to reply?" She said, "I'm nodding my head". "Ah?" I couldn't believe my ears. "I'm nodding my head" She replied loudly. I hang up the phone, quickly changed and took a taxi and rush to her place & press her door bell. During the moment when she opens the door. I hugged her tightly. Leaf departure is because of Wind pursuit. Or because Tree didn't ask her to stay.
blossom. 5:08 PM