Thursday, June 22, 2006
ten things perpetually on my mind:
(ranked in order of unhappiness)
1) random person(s).
2) my concepts are really bad.
3) i need to study harder?!
4) FOOD!! (i think im becoming a sam, and the mere thought of it is horrifying. maybe i can strike food off the list soon.)
5) world cup (well, i think soccer's not too bad now that i kinda know whats going on.)
6-10) movies, gatherings, shopping trips and catching up with old friends!
(ranked in order of unhappiness)
1) random person(s).
2) my concepts are really bad.
3) i need to study harder?!
4) FOOD!! (i think im becoming a sam, and the mere thought of it is horrifying. maybe i can strike food off the list soon.)
5) world cup (well, i think soccer's not too bad now that i kinda know whats going on.)
6-10) movies, gatherings, shopping trips and catching up with old friends!
blossom. 11:39 PM
Friday, June 16, 2006
today i went back to my old haunt to study, the cafe at kembangan. kinda miss that place, it brought back memories.
aunties are amazing people, they speak so loud, i can hear them despite blasting my music. well, one of them said, girls and guys can never be platonic friends. ahh, familiar, yet still controversial. the opposite sexes can never be platonic friends, because there are bound to be romantic attraction. i think that means that homosexuals can never find platonic same sex friends. but, my best friend is male.
they went on discussing, then, they brought up something interesting! when a girl goes out with a guy, it is very scandalous. and if they hold hands, IT IS VERY SERIOUS! i almost laughed in their face. then i realised, i kinda agree with them. if i were to hold hands with someone, i guess i would like him a lot.
its tiring, and hard to be nice all the time. who wouldnt want to be the someone that people can depend on when they need help? but there are times when the devil takes over. times when you ask for something, nobody returns the favour. nobody remembers what you asked for. nobody cares.
just when im starting to get positive, things like this happen. they may be small, but they cut me deep. all my good vibes have disappeared.
aunties are amazing people, they speak so loud, i can hear them despite blasting my music. well, one of them said, girls and guys can never be platonic friends. ahh, familiar, yet still controversial. the opposite sexes can never be platonic friends, because there are bound to be romantic attraction. i think that means that homosexuals can never find platonic same sex friends. but, my best friend is male.
they went on discussing, then, they brought up something interesting! when a girl goes out with a guy, it is very scandalous. and if they hold hands, IT IS VERY SERIOUS! i almost laughed in their face. then i realised, i kinda agree with them. if i were to hold hands with someone, i guess i would like him a lot.
its tiring, and hard to be nice all the time. who wouldnt want to be the someone that people can depend on when they need help? but there are times when the devil takes over. times when you ask for something, nobody returns the favour. nobody remembers what you asked for. nobody cares.
just when im starting to get positive, things like this happen. they may be small, but they cut me deep. all my good vibes have disappeared.
blossom. 10:03 PM
Tuesday, June 13, 2006
thoughts of how much i have not studied are weighing me down. thoughts of you are breaking me down. im near neurotic. somebody, give me the strength to get through.
blossom. 11:58 PM
Friday, June 02, 2006
two hours of slacking, two hours of giving out freebies, a whole lot richer, by five hours of pay. my first pot of gold, considering that the school have yet to pay me my internship money?! never mind the pot is only worth forty dollars, that is a fact that should be easily ignored. ;D
blossom. 11:32 PM