Sunday, August 20, 2006
i think im losing myself.
ive been on super short fuse the whole of last week. i think ive snapped at all the guys, except for a few. its funny, i dont seem to snap at girls. ive been telling people to stop doing nonsense, when i usually laugh along (or even join in?). i sulk in school during lunch when it rains, instead of running across to the hawker centre across like i used to. thank you for all those who came through for me ;) im sorry for being such a bitch, i really still love everyone okay? (i seriously think that im losing myself, im even saying such sweet things?!)
yesterday's dinner was good, i was back. i annoyed jieyi so much that she refused to talk to me? "xinyi's so annoying, i dont want to talk to her anymore!" she must have said that at least twenty times over dinner. and neha must have imitated jieyi at least twenty times too. hahaha. (to wanjie: i didnt get a photo of you? so you'll just have to come back.)
its my last official school week, i hope to make the best out of it, ie, no snapping and more smiles ;)
ive been on super short fuse the whole of last week. i think ive snapped at all the guys, except for a few. its funny, i dont seem to snap at girls. ive been telling people to stop doing nonsense, when i usually laugh along (or even join in?). i sulk in school during lunch when it rains, instead of running across to the hawker centre across like i used to. thank you for all those who came through for me ;) im sorry for being such a bitch, i really still love everyone okay? (i seriously think that im losing myself, im even saying such sweet things?!)
yesterday's dinner was good, i was back. i annoyed jieyi so much that she refused to talk to me? "xinyi's so annoying, i dont want to talk to her anymore!" she must have said that at least twenty times over dinner. and neha must have imitated jieyi at least twenty times too. hahaha. (to wanjie: i didnt get a photo of you? so you'll just have to come back.)
its my last official school week, i hope to make the best out of it, ie, no snapping and more smiles ;)
blossom. 10:00 PM
Monday, August 07, 2006
a case of extreme boredom turned fun!
20 names
Instructions: Name 20 people you can think of at the top of your head
1) banglin
2) jinjie
3) zhiyong
4) kahsing
5) leandra
6) wanjie
7) emma
8) agatha
9) arvin
10) jason
11) sean
12) jonny
13) arlene
14) peixun
15) khimrong
16) sam
17) yiheng
18) loko
19) amanda
20) amelia
1. How did you meet #14?
(peixun) orientation two. actually i heard of her already since sec one from gen.
2. What would you do if you had never met #1?
(banglin) i'll feel so lost i cant do anything. oh well, i dunno what i'll do but i'll be missing one good friend.
3. What would you do if #20 and #9 dated?
arvin and amelia? WAHHAA.
4. Would #6 & #17 make a good couple?
wanjie and yiheng? well, i think they can crack each other up.
5. Describe #3.
(zhiyong) always talk lots of cock. but a really good friend to me.
6. Do you think #8 is attractive?
(agatha) YES! (note: i didnt bother changing this answer from the previous user, which happens to be aga.)
7. Tell me something about #7.
emma cares for her friends so much, she felt that she was responsible for me when i was in crutches when she didnt even had to bother.
8. Do you know anything about #12's family?
jonny has a family tree of names starting with J!
9. What's #8's favourite?
(agatha) manutd! (note: answer unchanged too.) and me ;)
10. What would you do if #11 confesses that he/she likes you?
(chau sean) HAHAHA. laugh.
11. What language does #15 speak?
khimrong speaks gibberish.
12. Who is #9 going out with?
(arvin) oh, his neighbour who lives at 29C mandai road.
13. How old is #16 now?
(sam) seventeen.
14. When was the last time you talked to #13?
(arlene) how about, just six hours ago?
15. Who's #2's favourite singer?
(jinjie) craig david, fort minor, i dunno?
16. Would you date #4?
(kahsing) oh. i dont think so. NO HARD FEELINGS! (but i'll consider 04!! wahaha)
17. Would you date #7?
(emma) i know she isnt exactly straight, but i am!
18. Is #15 single?
(khimrong) of course not, she's everybody!
19. What is #10's last name?
(jason) TAN. tans rock.
20. Would you ever consider being in a relationship with #19?
(amanda) AHAHHAA. someone else would, but not me!
21. What schools did #3 go to?
(zhiyong) temasek sec, temasek jc, pasir ris primary? i dunno leh.
22. Where does #6 live?
(wanjie) last time i checked, it's macpherson.
23. What's your favourite thing about #5?
(leandra) her cheesy grin!
24. What do you think of #18?
loko is my lame friend who have too much talent art!
25. What do #4 & #19 have in common?
(kahsing and amanda) well, they're kinda tall, they're in tjc, they like soccer?
26. What special qualities does #5 hold in your life?
(leandra) oh, she's my secret lover.
20 names
Instructions: Name 20 people you can think of at the top of your head
1) banglin
2) jinjie
3) zhiyong
4) kahsing
5) leandra
6) wanjie
7) emma
8) agatha
9) arvin
10) jason
11) sean
12) jonny
13) arlene
14) peixun
15) khimrong
16) sam
17) yiheng
18) loko
19) amanda
20) amelia
1. How did you meet #14?
(peixun) orientation two. actually i heard of her already since sec one from gen.
2. What would you do if you had never met #1?
(banglin) i'll feel so lost i cant do anything. oh well, i dunno what i'll do but i'll be missing one good friend.
3. What would you do if #20 and #9 dated?
arvin and amelia? WAHHAA.
4. Would #6 & #17 make a good couple?
wanjie and yiheng? well, i think they can crack each other up.
5. Describe #3.
(zhiyong) always talk lots of cock. but a really good friend to me.
6. Do you think #8 is attractive?
(agatha) YES! (note: i didnt bother changing this answer from the previous user, which happens to be aga.)
7. Tell me something about #7.
emma cares for her friends so much, she felt that she was responsible for me when i was in crutches when she didnt even had to bother.
8. Do you know anything about #12's family?
jonny has a family tree of names starting with J!
9. What's #8's favourite?
(agatha) manutd! (note: answer unchanged too.) and me ;)
10. What would you do if #11 confesses that he/she likes you?
(chau sean) HAHAHA. laugh.
11. What language does #15 speak?
khimrong speaks gibberish.
12. Who is #9 going out with?
(arvin) oh, his neighbour who lives at 29C mandai road.
13. How old is #16 now?
(sam) seventeen.
14. When was the last time you talked to #13?
(arlene) how about, just six hours ago?
15. Who's #2's favourite singer?
(jinjie) craig david, fort minor, i dunno?
16. Would you date #4?
(kahsing) oh. i dont think so. NO HARD FEELINGS! (but i'll consider 04!! wahaha)
17. Would you date #7?
(emma) i know she isnt exactly straight, but i am!
18. Is #15 single?
(khimrong) of course not, she's everybody!
19. What is #10's last name?
(jason) TAN. tans rock.
20. Would you ever consider being in a relationship with #19?
(amanda) AHAHHAA. someone else would, but not me!
21. What schools did #3 go to?
(zhiyong) temasek sec, temasek jc, pasir ris primary? i dunno leh.
22. Where does #6 live?
(wanjie) last time i checked, it's macpherson.
23. What's your favourite thing about #5?
(leandra) her cheesy grin!
24. What do you think of #18?
loko is my lame friend who have too much talent art!
25. What do #4 & #19 have in common?
(kahsing and amanda) well, they're kinda tall, they're in tjc, they like soccer?
26. What special qualities does #5 hold in your life?
(leandra) oh, she's my secret lover.
blossom. 11:31 PM
Sunday, August 06, 2006
i miss my life quite a bit. the daily lunches at the hawker centre opposite school. the weekend tampines dinners with several classmates. the late dinners after trainings, especially those with ZHA GUO BING at bedok central. the occasional suntec lunches with emma and leandra. the thaipan sambal kangkong dinners with wanjie. the random meetings with jieyi and lihuan. the movie outings with loko. the extremely rare twc gatherings. my point is not that i miss good food. of course i do, BUT, i miss hanging out with people more.
all i do now is to head to the library. my legs bring me there automatically everyday after school, and sometimes during lunch breaks too. ive been surviving on bread, its not a bad thing though, cos im falling in love with sandwiches! so ive been in the library, reading up textbooks to do my s paper work. only for chem though, physics is quite a goner for me. and s papers are really frying my brains.
napfa came and passed. maybe not exactly, since ive only completed my five items. it wasnt too bad, except for my poor performance for shuttle run. (I FELL DOWN. okay enough.) but but but. i did fourteen inclined pullups!! it should be listed as one of my achievements in the SGC, considering i never did more than ten before! hahaha. 2.4km is coming up next week, i only hope i can actually still run. these are the times you wish you still had trainings to keep you in shape. and i think i will miss pe drastically.
i baked a cheesecake today. chocolate mocha cheesecake. i tried to vent my unhappiness pounding the biscuits. but my heart cracked when i saw the cheesecake crack. i havent even tried it, and i thought i was craving for cheesecake. it looks so awful, i dont even dare to offer it to anyone.
i wanna watch the lakehouse, but there's no one to watch it with.
and i just got ignored again, im such a loser.
there's a gp essay to write tmr, i hope i dont write like this. cluttered thoughts and all, with no significance to one another.
i hope national day celebrations will be good, i hope we'll have fun, cos its about one of the last till 24th november.
all i do now is to head to the library. my legs bring me there automatically everyday after school, and sometimes during lunch breaks too. ive been surviving on bread, its not a bad thing though, cos im falling in love with sandwiches! so ive been in the library, reading up textbooks to do my s paper work. only for chem though, physics is quite a goner for me. and s papers are really frying my brains.
napfa came and passed. maybe not exactly, since ive only completed my five items. it wasnt too bad, except for my poor performance for shuttle run. (I FELL DOWN. okay enough.) but but but. i did fourteen inclined pullups!! it should be listed as one of my achievements in the SGC, considering i never did more than ten before! hahaha. 2.4km is coming up next week, i only hope i can actually still run. these are the times you wish you still had trainings to keep you in shape. and i think i will miss pe drastically.
i baked a cheesecake today. chocolate mocha cheesecake. i tried to vent my unhappiness pounding the biscuits. but my heart cracked when i saw the cheesecake crack. i havent even tried it, and i thought i was craving for cheesecake. it looks so awful, i dont even dare to offer it to anyone.
i wanna watch the lakehouse, but there's no one to watch it with.
and i just got ignored again, im such a loser.
there's a gp essay to write tmr, i hope i dont write like this. cluttered thoughts and all, with no significance to one another.
i hope national day celebrations will be good, i hope we'll have fun, cos its about one of the last till 24th november.
blossom. 10:51 PM